Deck the Halls with Bawls of Hypocrites!

The other day on the news there was a report on how far behind the Salvation Army was on their Toyland Express toy drive for Christmas. The numbers were disheartening and motivated me to action. I took up a toy drive at work, challenging my coworkers and offering to take any toys donated to the Salvation Army myself. For a bunch of non-profit workers, the drive was a fabulous success! We had three boxes of toys and probably close to 100 toys. I loaded them all into my car and headed over to the main branch for drop-off, thinking about how good I would feel doing so. When I got there the parking lot was over-run by both donors and those that needed assistance. There wasn't a parking space to be found. As a result I was parked about as far away as was possible and grabbed the first box to take in. Weaving between hastily parked cars and traffic, I noticed people hauling in food baskets. I passed people who were dropping in for assistance, all smiling and joking with me. The lady at the drop-off counter barely had a moment to ask if I needed a receipt before moving on to the next person in line. I moved through the chaos and back out into the cold to get the next box. People filed past me in the opposite direction with more food baskets coming in. I got to the car, grabbed the next box and headed back in. I noticed that the food baskets were coming back out as fast as they were going in. I glanced hastily through the crowd at what was either the meal kitchen, or the meal pick-up room. It was filled to capacity it seemed. Slowly the pride that I thought I would feel started to dwindle. It was as if I was Sisyphus pushing a giant boulder up a mountain. Was I even making a dent? I know that every little bit helps. But the need I was surrounded by was so overwhelming, and yet the atmosphere was one of humility and thanks. There were people holding doors, helping wheel things in, keeping mindful of traffic and clear of the pathways. These are the people who feel "entitled"? I questioned. Yes, I suppose they feel entitled to have no food on the table, or to feel humiliated that they can't feed their family, or to watch their child slowly suffer through sickness and die. Have the people that use the term "entitlement programs" ever been to a soup kitchen, or a Salvation Army, or a mission?



A vision grew in my mind. The conservatives that are out there tend to be from religious backgrounds. Tell me how you would answer this scenario. If Jesus himself were to come down and ask you to make a decision..."I am going to help a predetermined group of people. These people have sick kids, and no jobs and no food. But I'll be honest with you. Of these ten people, at least three of them aren't really in need of help. But either I help all of them, or I help none of them. Tell me what you think I should do." What answer would you give him? What answer do you think he would want to hear from one of his followers?




Seems to me that it's pretty clear. I left the chaos and went to do my rounds of errands. I dropped some money in the bell ringer's can, and then donated to the soup kitchen at the grocery store. I can already feel the boulder rolling back down towards me!

Web of Strife

Where I work we have an educational game for kids. It's called the Web of Life game. All the kids get in a circle and are assigned a "role" in nature. You could be a tree, animal, air, water, human...take your pick. A string is randomly strung so that all the kids are linked together. The game starts by one kid pulling a string to find out who it connects to. They then have to tell how their role is linked to that other role. Eventually the game will come back to the original string puller to show that everyone is, in fact linked together and dependent on one another.

How nice it would be if we had this game for adults. Take for instance, the GP oil spill and the idea that somehow boycotting the company will make a point. The only point it will make is how nobody is separate from this spill. The folks who are boycotting it seem to think that they exist outside of the web. What they need to know is that there is an intricate web of relationships that will lead back to them and smack them hard on the ass! For instance, boycotting a local gas station puts a financial strain on the owner who will then may end up selling the business. Perhaps the next gas company coming in will charge more for gas. (And yet they will still be just as environmentally apathetic as BP.) So you end up paying more. That's a small connection. How about the fact that if lots of other people do this same BP boycott. Suddenly BP loses the finances to help clean up, and support those effected by the spill. What might be those ramifications for you? Think on it for a while and you might start to understand.

What it comes down to is the "pay it forward" way of thinking. If you send something negative through the web, then something negative will come back to you. If you send something positive...well, it ain't rocket science people! Call it karma, or say "you reap what you sew". Either way you are in the same web as me and BP.

To Be or To Be Stepped All Over? That is the question.

Where is the line between being a genuine, easy going person and being a push-over? If you concede to a request and it is followed by a response of "I love you" as a remark of relief and surprise, you begin to wonder. Did I just give up ground that should have been held onto or used as bartering material? Was that a naive decision? Should I have thought long and hard about my ego and how this would reflect on it? What power have I given up? Yet the concilliation was made in good faith on my part. Perhaps I hadn't pondered long and hard in regards to how to make this about me? So I did. I pondered long and hard. I am still convinced that my decision was based on a genuine desire for the greater good. And yet I am left with this nagging sensation that I lack self-esteem and the proper ego to succeed in the water with the rest of the sharks. Here I am feeling like chum in the waters of frenzied managerial sharks, as I hang in the water trying survive by riding the current and fighting only when I am being taken out to sea. There are certain species in the ocean that need the flotsam that is out there to survive and multiply. Perhaps that is me. Not so much chum as flotsam. The cataclyst for life in a vast ocean of ego.