Growing up sucks! Yet my youth is fresh enough in my mind that I remember the angst that permeated every aspect of my life. I felt that every adult in the world was contributing to a downfall of society that had spiralled out of control. I was powerless, yet I could express my anger through vivid-colored clothing and loud, thundering music. I was awkward and uncertain, yet I could hide behind my parents and friends and pretend that I never had to move forward in life. I had "freedom" and yet I wasn't free. I spent every moment of every day wondering how to fit in, how to proceed or how to avoid being seen. Today I am no better off. I am still filled with angst over whether I am fulfilling my goals, presenting my ideas well and supporting the right team. Going back isn't appealing even if I could. Going forward, into the unknown, at least gives me a chance at something...what am I looking for...direction? redemption? freedom? peace? power? influence?

I look at our leaders, our CEO's, politicians, leaders, presidents and I realize that they are all just like me. They are human, not super-heroes. In the privacy of their own dwellings they sit and feel uncertainty, pressure, and the burden that they lead by example. Yet they know no more than I. How much they must laugh inside themselves to deal with the reality that every word they utter, every action they undertake is scrutinized, emmulated and copied by those that wish to be super human.

I'm still living for the slight chance that somehow at some point, it all gets easier, or better but I don't know what that even means. As far as I can tell, we are all just "shooting from the hip". Some of us just have better luck than others, but we are all completely fallible.

Our presidents, kings and monarchs will all crumble, die and be gone. We can't escape that fate. What will you do in the mean-time? Focus on your angst? Have you overcome it? Did you escape the pull of uncertainty, or find the courage to embrace it? I await your insight!