To Be or To Be Stepped All Over? That is the question.

Where is the line between being a genuine, easy going person and being a push-over? If you concede to a request and it is followed by a response of "I love you" as a remark of relief and surprise, you begin to wonder. Did I just give up ground that should have been held onto or used as bartering material? Was that a naive decision? Should I have thought long and hard about my ego and how this would reflect on it? What power have I given up? Yet the concilliation was made in good faith on my part. Perhaps I hadn't pondered long and hard in regards to how to make this about me? So I did. I pondered long and hard. I am still convinced that my decision was based on a genuine desire for the greater good. And yet I am left with this nagging sensation that I lack self-esteem and the proper ego to succeed in the water with the rest of the sharks. Here I am feeling like chum in the waters of frenzied managerial sharks, as I hang in the water trying survive by riding the current and fighting only when I am being taken out to sea. There are certain species in the ocean that need the flotsam that is out there to survive and multiply. Perhaps that is me. Not so much chum as flotsam. The cataclyst for life in a vast ocean of ego.